I agree about that scene. If taken at surface value, it really does stand out like a sore thumb from the rest of the episode. I honestly don't know if it's so much that Tain had changed, or that Garak's ability to see Tain for what he truly was had altered. Either way, my "mental Garak", my version of him in my head, realized in that moment that they were no longer compatible goal wise or anything else, and that perhaps they never should have been.
That scene with Odo makes me cry every time I watch it. I love both of those characters, and I hate seeing them hurt that way. It's as though they both broke each other in different ways, and neither of them wanted to do it to the other. I was glad that at least they became friends out of it. Lesser people would have walked away from that never wanting another thing to do with one another.
The aftermath was painful to write. Truly, I don't think I can get a higher compliment than being told I've managed to suspend belief, because that's the real goal of any fic story, I think, to take us out of what we know and immerse us into what the author wants us to know, so THANK YOU. Wow.
I felt every bit as badly for Garak as I did Julian in that scene. Not only did he lose Tain, he lost himself, the way he always saw himself, and that's probably one of the most painful experiences in life, to realize that you're no longer the person you thought you were when you never wanted to change or thought you needed to. Of course, what made me feel so bad for Julian was that from his position, he thought he was doing everything in his power to help Garak, and their ideas of what Garak wants and needs are just so very far apart. So when Garak lashed out in that horrible way, it didn't even make sense to him.
This story has taken me places I had no idea I'd go and probably wouldn't have even been able to without the excellent source material. I appreciate the continued reading and analysis. Feedback helps keep me on track and even gets me thinking hard about the next step.
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Date: 2010-01-07 08:29 pm (UTC)That scene with Odo makes me cry every time I watch it. I love both of those characters, and I hate seeing them hurt that way. It's as though they both broke each other in different ways, and neither of them wanted to do it to the other. I was glad that at least they became friends out of it. Lesser people would have walked away from that never wanting another thing to do with one another.
The aftermath was painful to write. Truly, I don't think I can get a higher compliment than being told I've managed to suspend belief, because that's the real goal of any fic story, I think, to take us out of what we know and immerse us into what the author wants us to know, so THANK YOU. Wow.
I felt every bit as badly for Garak as I did Julian in that scene. Not only did he lose Tain, he lost himself, the way he always saw himself, and that's probably one of the most painful experiences in life, to realize that you're no longer the person you thought you were when you never wanted to change or thought you needed to. Of course, what made me feel so bad for Julian was that from his position, he thought he was doing everything in his power to help Garak, and their ideas of what Garak wants and needs are just so very far apart. So when Garak lashed out in that horrible way, it didn't even make sense to him.
This story has taken me places I had no idea I'd go and probably wouldn't have even been able to without the excellent source material. I appreciate the continued reading and analysis. Feedback helps keep me on track and even gets me thinking hard about the next step.